happy..birthday to me (this is really..reallly..late..)

i didn't realize that this was in draft.
so enjoy my birthday blog..now that its practically a month later..:-/

eiik. today is my birthday.
and my email so kindly reminded me that yes. in fact ME was born today and to send her a card.
and that this event ladies and gentlemen..happens every year.


go figure.
15 years of getting that email and i still get a kick out of it.
go listen to some chad sugg, 100th or May, and john mayer just for me.
trust meeeee <333

-1000 degrees

okay. last time i checked, being a kid wasn't supposed to be this hard.
homework consumes me to a point where i'm not getting much (if any) sleep
and i dont feel like looking nice or acting pleasantly.

if it has to snow, why doesnt it snow us out of school?
if teachers feel like they have to "challenge us" why do we have to be "challenged" with overlapping projects and pointless projects?
if drama is part of a teenager's life, then why do so many of us want to kill each other because of it?
if boys are so much trouble, why do we keep falling for them?


if questions are asked
where are the answers?


i have hope and i may just be "hopelessly hopeful to be hopeful enough"
that maybe i'll become brave enough to blaze through the
heartache and the headaches for him
either that or i'll have to pick myself up each morning and place the big question mark into the invisible tears that i stream in the halls,
waiting for the day someone will figure it out and find it there
and then place me on their shoulders, carrying me along until
i'm strong enough to walk along side them.


for now, ill keep asking, and keep listening.
and know that this loveistheonlything making me smile for him
in case he'll notice
and in case i'll be watching with my head up and not hung.


ps. its like -1000 degrees outside and -1000000000 inside me.

the village sessions

alrighty now even though i think everyone should own everything that john mayer has ever done to the max, but owning The Village Sessions EP he produced after producing Continuum has got to be one of the greatest, most soothing and rewarding cds I think I will ever own;

so get out there kids.
and buy it with your pennies.
because its the greatest thing
that will ever happen to you.

finals.suck.

okay.
so.
finals.
are.
officially.
the sdkjwedklzolpq-est.
worthless.
piece.
of wasted.
papers.
i have.
ever.
had.
to.
take.


just to let you all know;
i could quite possibly be in mid-crisis at any point.
or in complete breakdown all the time.
yupp.