so confused.

this is so confusing.
i just don't understand what is going on.
i thought, seriously, that i had a handle on things.
and i saw tonight that, once again, when i think
that things are working out.
that they, in fact, aren't.
i was perfectly content with not talking tonight.
i really, really was.
i thought "okay, so tomorrow"
then i talked.
and i thought
"okay, so tonight. that's great."
and for about a half an hour
it was great.
it was fun and it was going well.
and then, inevitably, it got cut off.
i don't know what. to do.
seriously.
i'm just so damn frustrated.
i am just so. so. frustrated.
it's so irritating.
i was so content just a little while ago.
and then i realized.
y'know what.
this. isn't. working.
i am so. confused.
i try and disengage.
i try and be affectionate.
i try and act indifferent.
i try. and it just doesn't work.
i'm so. frustrated.







i am so frustrated.