i had something long and complicated ready for you to read, if you still do. but then i changed my mind through the course of the day as i had hoped that i would. it's not complicated at all, actually, i kept telling myself today as i went over what i wanted to explain. i love you now and you don't love me now. i'm not even going to say that traditional "not as far as i know, anyways" second half that i tell myself in order to feel better about the situation. because what i feel is that i love you now and you don't love me now. and for tonight, i feel like that's okay again. i just wish that we could love each other at the same time, that we will before it's too late. because i don't want to say that i wish we could HAVE loved. you mean too much to me, i love you too much. i do. because i have so much love for you that you won't be able to stand up straight or wrap your arms around me for my love will be too great, too strong, too forever.