PS. First day in my own apartment,
I'm recreating this picture.
If I feel like I can write an entire story about a picture by first glance, then I feel like it's done it's duty. Then I feel like it's "worthy"
If I can look at a picture,
and feel something,
something that doesn't last long
and is hard to put my finger on
but feels so good,
then it's "worthy"
Because with this picture, I get that feeling of autumn leaves, just for a second. I can feel the breeze in my bones, almost for an entire minute. And then I shake it out and look again for a new feeling. Because with this picture, I feel like I can write an entire story based on it. I want someone to look at my photographs and feel that - I want someone to look at my photographs and believe in something again. I want someone to look at my photographs and feel something that they've missed, if only for a minute at most. Because that's why I photograph and that's why I get so frustrated and that's why I get so serious as I rush back and forth between the darkroom and the classroom. Because I want to get it right - I want to get that feeling right for people as soon as they look at my photograph. And on days that I don't work in the darkroom or on days that I do but don't get anything done, that means I just don't have that feeling anymore. I feel like then I can't give it to anyone with my work so why should I force out crap? It's not worth producing something that I can't look back at and FEEL something with. This picture makes me feel things - it makes me want to be that girl. It makes me sad and it makes me pleased, all in equal 100% amounts. I love photography for that reason alone; the feelings that come when you least expect them too and then they linger inside your heart and makes your head ache. I want to recreate this picture so when I look at it, I can feel even more. I feel like today will be good.
I'm recreating this picture.
If I feel like I can write an entire story about a picture by first glance, then I feel like it's done it's duty. Then I feel like it's "worthy"
If I can look at a picture,
and feel something,
something that doesn't last long
and is hard to put my finger on
but feels so good,
then it's "worthy"
Because with this picture, I get that feeling of autumn leaves, just for a second. I can feel the breeze in my bones, almost for an entire minute. And then I shake it out and look again for a new feeling. Because with this picture, I feel like I can write an entire story based on it. I want someone to look at my photographs and feel that - I want someone to look at my photographs and believe in something again. I want someone to look at my photographs and feel something that they've missed, if only for a minute at most. Because that's why I photograph and that's why I get so frustrated and that's why I get so serious as I rush back and forth between the darkroom and the classroom. Because I want to get it right - I want to get that feeling right for people as soon as they look at my photograph. And on days that I don't work in the darkroom or on days that I do but don't get anything done, that means I just don't have that feeling anymore. I feel like then I can't give it to anyone with my work so why should I force out crap? It's not worth producing something that I can't look back at and FEEL something with. This picture makes me feel things - it makes me want to be that girl. It makes me sad and it makes me pleased, all in equal 100% amounts. I love photography for that reason alone; the feelings that come when you least expect them too and then they linger inside your heart and makes your head ache. I want to recreate this picture so when I look at it, I can feel even more. I feel like today will be good.
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