it's a funny feeling

when you're hearing positive things
from people about what you love ..
and all the while you're thinking of things that are bad.
thinking of ways to run away, thinking of ways to leave.
it's that funny feeling
of a sad happiness.
of a sad happiness where
your heart hurts in both directions.
your feet are off the ground for two reasons.
i've got that. that funny feeling. that sad, sad, happiness.