my fault?

i don't know if i messed things up again
i don't think that i did
i think it's unrelated.
i don't know.
i'm seeing this go down
and i can't help but think that things are wrong.
i mean, i know i can't say if they are or aren't.
but .. your girl. i don't know.
i guess it's what you need right now.
i just want to talk to you
and i really want to see you.
i have a funny feeling that it'll be a long time?
i hope not though.
i miss you.
and i can't go much longer without one or the other.
i have too much to tell you.
granted, there's so much i won't tell you.
but the things you'll want to hear, i'll say.
i've got this idea for us.
it's just that it's in my head
and sometimes that's as far out as it gets.
i know you're busy.
but i can't help wanting to ask for the moments you're free for me.
that's completely selfish
but its how i feel

and ps. on a totally different note, if she knows that it's my blogspot, does she read these blogs? because if she does, i really want her to get her life back on track.