"Sometimes I traveled alone, sometimes, there were others who took the wheel -- and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasn’t me who arrived...it wasn't me at all."

I love that quote - it feels so right. Is that bad? That a sad quote fits the most? And by the way .. I saw that comment just a second ago that you made when I looked for the draft I saved this quote in. I don't know who said it - I have two main guesses and I think I have it right. But I'm not sure. You said you didn't know how to help and that you do see it , trying to watch out for me. Thank you - but I'm not sure what to do about words like that .. And on a more selfish note, have you been walking around with those words since the 27th? What all have you read? Everything? I guess the problem is is that I don't know if I want help from you. Or from anyone really. And I'm just angry - I'm angry that I have to ask all the time. Which mean, more so than not, I just don't ask. It's not fair to anyone that I'm still just really angry all the time and it's not fair that I've talking about it and things with anyone as much as I should. That's sad too. But I think that's just the way it is these days. We just don't talk about it. I'm just broken still. And I'm trying to figure out what went wrong back then and why things are still going wrong. So, right now, I'm traveling alone. Maybe one day when I reach the end, I'll know what happened during this period .. maybe it'll be me again.

I don't know though.