grow up and grow old for one more day

i forgot how tired i can get
because for awhile tonight, i was doing alright.
but now that i've been home for a little while
and i've been in the den, alone, watching tv and writing in my journal -
just like i wanted to -
i realized how lonely this life is going to be
and i let that slip my mind for a minute
i forgot how tired i can get.


and the worse thing is, i feel like i want to stay up
and stay up for you.
there's no reason to do that though.
and my eyes are watering and red
and i forgot how tired i can get.
i'm looking forward to "sleeping in" tomorrow
i forgot how nice that is.
i'm going to have a great day tomorrow -
we won't talk; i know that.
so when we do, we do.
and i won't be tired anymore
because i am throwing in the towel
and going to bed.


i'll just grow up and grow old for one more day alone