ps.

time has gotten away from me -
this weekend was extremely weird for me?
it was like while i was out, i had no sense of the day.
i knew what time it was - i was well aware how much time was left in the programs and everything
but the actual day never actually crossed my mind.
i was thinking in one of the later services
what it would be like to lead a life like this all the time
everyone was always saying that none of these kids have actual school friends
just friends from these events.
which is good except
last time i checked, you have to go to school.
which is another constant nagging -
school.
what i'm craving right now
is a cold, cold day in fall
where i'm laying on cold grass,
wrapped up in layers of clothing
with my iPod just laying there.
that would be so relaxing;
so soothing.
i was thinking the other day about ben's internship
and i was thinking about northwestern's campus
and how you have to go through the steps to get there
but there has to be some that i can skip
to get to that kind of internship
that kind of walk around campus
that kind of fall day where i can do that
and not have a single
solitary
fear
in
or
of
my
life ..