ask me

"I need to know that your going to let me in, all the way"
"I will, okay? I'll let you in. It's just sometimes I'm afraid that if I do, you'll see the real me. The person I was before and I'm not proud of that person; the person I used to be"

But, see, I'm not afraid to let you in.
I'm dying to tell you everything - I really am.
But I need you to ask because I can't just tell you. I'm too afraid of what you'll say.
See, I'm not worried about telling you, I'm worried about what will happen next.
I know you won't like it and I know you won't feel the same.
But I am so, so needing to talk to you about all of this -
To let you in and let you stay with me until you've heard it all.
And then have you stay longer than that, have you stay here forever
So that I won't be afraid of what you'll say next -
I'm not afraid to let you in.
I'm dying to tell you everything - can't you just ask me what's going on?


I'd tell you, I would. I'd tell you everything and let you in all the time, every time.
To just know that your there, with me, whenever I need you.
But that's not what's going on. Because I really want to let you know
Everything that's going on.
So just ask me, I'll tell you what's going on. You used to ask.
Things were bad back then and I think you felt like you had to ask to make them seem better.
But things aren't any easier now and I need you to ask. With that tone of voice, that soft volume and that sympathetic sigh. C'mon - just ask I'll tell you. I will. I want to let you in and you have to let me have you be let in. Because it's getting cold - standing here all by myself just waiting for you. Just ask me and I'll tell you. Let me know that I can let you in and let you stay, that I won't have to be worried about where you'll go or who you'll tell or what you'll think - just that if I let you in, you'll want to be there. And that you'll stay. So just ask. I'll tell you.